Child like forgiveness (you thought I was going to say faith)

My girls, You teach me so much all the time.  I am not a perfect mother by any stretch of the imagination.  No one knows this better then the two of you.  There are times I am impatient and need to slow my pace down.  There are times my correction is to harsh or not done with the right tone of love.  There are times I am having a bad day and that plays on my mood and how I interact with you.  Well I had one of those days the other day.  I came to the both of you and said mommy was grumpy and I am sorry. I love you both more then words can say and I should know better.  You girls both got HUGE smiles on your face and said it is ok mommy we love you!  Then you both wrapped your arms around me and gave me the biggest hug.   Then you wanted me to read a book and the subject was closed.

You both in that moment were an awesome representation of Christ to me.  You forgave me instantly there was no lingering on it there were no stings attached.  You were thrilled with my apology and were eager to forgive and move on in love.  I pray you girls never outgrow that forgiving spirit.  Always forgive the way Christ forgives you.  Thank you for your unconditional love for me!  I pray I can follow your example and love and forgive as freely and instantly as you both do.

1st day of school 2014.

Wow summer sure has flown by!!  It has been a great time with you girls.  I love every minute I get to spend with you! I am so blessed to be your mom and thankful to be able to stay home with you.

Abby, it is hard to believe that you are in first grade! You went right into your classroom sat at your desk and were ready to start your day.  I pray you always have your eagerness to learn and to continue to take your time and and do your best for Jesus in all things.  You are my first born and I can't believe that tiny baby that seemed so small is now 6 and half in first grade. You will always be my baby no matter how old you are!

Maddie, you are my baby!  You are the last baby we will ever have unless the Lord decides otherwise. You were born early but you have always been strong.  You meet the world head on!  Today is your very first day of preschool.  You walked in confident and strong and ready to make this class yours.  Sure you got a little nervous and asked me to stay a little longer, but you were reassured when I reminded you I would pick you up after nap time.  I pray you always know how strong you are in the Lord and are never intimidated by any situation because You have Jesus.

I wish I knew from the start how fast this time would go.  Everyone said it would be fast but they didnt say it would be a blink of an eye..


I Love You!
Mommy

The Lord Speaks through you and You Minister to ME!!

The other morning I was hugging on you Abby.  We had a rare moment where it was just you and I for a few minutes.  You had no idea of the thoughts I had been struggling with.  I had come to a spot where I was worried!  It doesn't matter all the reasons why I was worried.. It was just something I hadn't given to the Lord.

Abby, You crawled up in my lap and said hey Mommy.  I said Yes abby.  You said: did you know that the Lord is our shield and that He uses that to protect us from everything?!  I said yes I did know that, But I really needed the reminder So thank you!   I almost cried when you told me that.  It was exactly what I needed to hear at that very moment.  You couldn't have possibly known I lost sleep the night before worrying about things out of my control.  I want your child like faith!


I also remember sometime ago over a year at least.  Daddy and I were talking about some very serious stuff and some of our fears over our current (at the time) situation.  Maddie you were in your room praying and you started praying for mommy and daddy.  You simply said "Jesus please help mommy and daddy amen".  You said that over and over.. It touched mine and daddy's heart in that moment.  You did not have the words to pray a deep prayer you were only 2 maybe 3.  You prayed what you could and it ministered to me in the depths of where I was in that moment.

You both are my loves and

 I love you I love you Just the way you are  (a song we sing at this moment in time)

My Prayer for YOU..

You both are my pride and joy.  When I look at your faces I feel so much LOVE.   I loved you instantly and unconditionally.  You call me by the name I most love to hear "mommy".  

I know I have made and will make many mistakes in being your mother, but never doubt my love for you! 

I pray for you daily!  I always pray for protection and excellent health.  I pray for you to know the voice of the Lord even now and for it to grow from this day on.  I pray for you to be mighty in the Lord.  I pray for you to be used mightily by the Lord.  I pray for your successes and failures.  I pray that you use that mind of yours that you have set so firmly on specific things to be set firmly in living for the Lord.  I pray for the man each of you will marry one day.  I pray for you to be pure in heart and joyful.  I pray for you to be strong steady.  I pray for you to be generous, kind, and slow to anger.  I pray for everything you set out to do that you have favor and walk in confidence.  I pray for you to know how beautiful you are and be confident in who you are so that you never look for that else where.   I pray that you will always have a voice for the Lord and never be afraid to use it.  I pray for wisdom.  I pray for you to answer the calling the Lord gives you each and every day.  I pray for you to serve Him unashamedly and apologetically.  The Lord has great things ahead for you both.. I am so thankful He gave you both to me...

I pray that when you are older you arent a crowd follower.  I prayer you are a leader.  I pray that when you are older if you ever try to sneak out of this house the Lord will wake me up (if its in the night) and or let me know so you will be caught and stopped.  I pray that you wont be lured into the temptation of drugs and alcohol at any age. 

I pray that you will be happy.

I am always prying for you.  I am always thinking about you... you are never far from my thoughts.

The Lord loves you even more then all of this and beyond.  He is God and He is good.  Trust Him above all else...

My Loves

To my Daughters,
 I have decided to start this blog for the two of you.  So many times I want to write things down so that you can read later.  I want to remember myself.  Abby you are now 6 and in Kindergarden.  Maddie you are now 3 and stay at home with me.  I have been blessed with the honor of being able to have (have had ) you both home with me during the day till preschool.  (age 3 and half)

Abby at this point you are finding your way and learning as you go.  You try so hard to be perfect at everything.  You hold yourself to such high standards.  You are very good at wanting to put your best foot fwd in all you do.  Christ does teach us to do everything at our best to glorify Him.  Try not to always be so hard on yourself.  It is ok to be wrong at times.  The important thing is that we learn from our mistakes.  We have to let the Lord pick us up when we fall.  His arms are so loving.  He will catch you when you fall.  Try not to be to hard on yourself.

You are so good with your sister.  You are so loving and kind.  Sure, you get upset with her at times and you may take a swing at her, but over all you are very mothering to her.  I love watching you be the big sister.  Maddie loves you so much and she watches everything you do.  Today she put the scary mask on just because she saw you do it yesterday.  She knew it was ok because you showed her it was.

Maddie your name means strong tower and my goodness are you STRONG.  You have a strong will you are physically STRONG.  If you and Abby get into a fight Abby will be the one to cry because you hit harder then she does.  You also love to cuddle.  You for sure have your mind set on the way things should be done and you will not deviate from that.  You also dont like for anyone to  be mad.  I was talking to my mom today (grandmommy) and she mentioned how you like to make sure no one is mad at you when you act up.

Always remember even as strong as you are there is one stronger in Jesus.  Even in those rare moments when you may feel weak He will make you strong.  If we dont have Him we arent really strong at all.

I am trying to prepare you for starting school part time in August.  You are my last baby.  I pray you will grow and love to learn.  This is going to be hard.  You are my last baby.

Both of you are answers to my prayers.  I LOVE being your mom.  I am far from perfect but I promise to ALWAYS love you both no matter what.  I promise to always strive to be a better mom to you both. Right now I am praying to be able to slow down and just enjoy you both at the ages and level you are (enjoy it even more).  I pray that through me you can see that the Lord is good, kind, patient and loving.   I pray that I will exemplify these things so that you know your heavenly father has these attributes as well.

We always pray on our way to school.  We all take turns.  When it was my turn the other day in my prayer I prayed that the Lord would help me be a better mommy.  Abby, when I was done praying you said mommy you dont have to pray that.  You are already the best mommy in the world.   You guys are so loving.  I cherish these times. I am also thankful I have  the Lord to make me the mommy you deserve every day.

With Love,
Mommy :)